Sometimes..
Sometimes I get so caught up.
Sometimes I fall under the pressure of the jobs in the house.
Sometimes I become almost demonic with perfecting silly ornaments in the house like I have some crazy OCD.
Sometimes I stare intently at a bit of fluff on the carpet whilst my Husband is talking to me, desperate to go and pick it up.
Sometimes I don't listen enough.
Sometimes I talk more than I listen.
Sometimes I don't talk enough.
Sometimes I let everything get on top of me. I do this far too often.
Sometimes I feel more stressed out than I actually thought was possible to be.
Sometimes I just wish the house was perfect, that there was nothing left to do in it so that we could focus our efforts on just each other.
Sometimes I want to scream when Ethan won't go to bed and it's 9pm and I am trying to have a little 'me' time - that time is now. But then I realise that it's not worth stressing over.. so what he's crawling around the living room in his grow bag pulling the sky box out? - No-one died.
Sometimes I wish I could be that perfect Mum and perfect Wife, who never gets stressed, keeps a perfect house and is super-organised.
Sometimes I wish I was smarter, that I 'knew' things.. I'm working on this.. I just sat and learnt about the oceans of the world.. (it's the small steps..)
Sometimes I want to sit and reflect, reflect again and then reflect some more.
Sometimes I need to remember how insanely lucky I am and to remember just how many wonderful things have happened to me, some of which blow my mind.
Sometimes I just need to sit and look at photos like this and realise that a dirty kitchen floor, a pile of washing, an hours wait at the Doctors, an unfinished house and all those other bloody daily bugbears..well they are just absolutely nothing.
Not even a tiny dot in the ocean compared to them.
My family and I. This is what truly means something and well..
Sometimes.. I just need to remember that more.
Alex this is a beautiful post! I can completely relate to all you have said. I have got a bit of OCD and worry about the small things but when I look at the girls or get a squeeze (cuddle) from them I think why did I worry or moan. You have a beautiful family hun xx
ReplyDeleteTotally relate to this xx
ReplyDeleteGorgeous photo and great post. Sometimes we all need to remember that more! x
ReplyDeleteAmen! I need to remember this too! x
ReplyDeleteI can totally relate to this. I feel like I've done the cleaning and tidying but then it needs doing again within a matter of hours. I def need to remember this x
ReplyDeleteAw lovely post Alex! It's so good to remember that at the end of the day (no matter how un productive/stressful) we always have so much to be grateful for :) x
ReplyDeleteGreat post, Can definitely relate to everything you mentioned :) x
ReplyDeleteSo true Alex. It's that old saying, don't sweat the small stuff, which at times is super hard!xx
ReplyDeleteaww such a lovely post!
ReplyDeleteI think we are all guilty of some of the things above at some point and we all need to just stop and think for a moment.
Great post.
Jess
http:owlcrazymummy.blogspot.co.uk
it all looks very nice, nice pictures, nice family...
ReplyDeleteSo very true!
ReplyDeleteI can completely relate to this!! Xx
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