Being a Mum is not what I expected..
Ethan is 6 weeks old today and seriously these last six weeks have been the greatest six weeks of my whole life. Before I was a Mum I felt that I had a pretty good understanding of what it felt like to be somebody's Mummy but I was just so wrong. The feelings that a Mum feels can only truly be understood by her when she actually becomes 'Mum'.
Those timeless moments when I catch my baby staring at me intently with his breathtakingly beautiful big blue eyes and then as I move in closer to him his face beams with the most precious, most delightful smile I've ever seen are what fills my heart with utter joy and absolute completeness.
And to think that there once was a time when I felt adamant that I would never want to have any children.. Seriously what was I thinking??! Thank God I changed my mind - he along with his Dad are the best things to have ever happened to me!
I love that my home is filled with mess, it's a beautiful mess. It's finally full of 'home' and 'family', I totally get what this means now. I spent so many hours tirelessly cleaning it and re-arranging frames, ornaments, pillows.. you name it, when truly all it needed was baby blankets, teddy bears, gosh even nappies and dummies. Now it is home.
And it's not just home that now feels 'right', ..I do too. I have finally found my purpose. You see I was never completely content with myself, I always felt that I was endlessly searching for what it was I was suppose to do. Becoming Adams wife set me on the path to finding out who it is I really am, but it was becoming a Mum to Ethan that made me realise who I actually am. Being a Mum to someone has given me a purpose beyond belief. To Ethan I am his most favourite person {along with Daddy}, I give the best cuddles, I make him happy.. I'm 'his Mum', he will always rely on me and lean on me for support and that makes me feel like a a pretty big deal!
So yeah, being a Mum isn't what I expected it is just so much better!
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Lovely post! I'm due my baby boy any day now, he's currently 4 days late... getting impatient now. Just discovered your blog and it's brilliant, looking forward to reading more about your life as a mum! xx
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Aww Thanks Kat! Good luck with baby, I know what you mean about feeling impatient, but when it happens it'll be over so quickly! xx
DeleteLove this -- posts like these make me so ready for my little one to arrive ...
ReplyDeleteAww thanks, Good luck! :) xx
DeleteThis is so lovely Alex! I always say you can never explsin to anyone what being a mum is like until you have a baby yourself. Xx
ReplyDeleteHarriet - it is so true! :) xx
DeleteLovely post. Making me very broody! Can't remember my nearly 18 month old being so tiny :) x
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Hehe thank you :) xx
DeleteThis is the sweetest post! I've always felt as you have in the past, but maybe one day i'll change! You've given me evidence it can happen! Do you remember being terrified of losing your independence and figure? Things like that? xx
ReplyDeleteHi Robyn! Firsty, thank you :) Secondly, yeah I was terrified of certain things, losing my figure not so much as tbh with you I've never been that fussy about my weight, but if this concerns you - don't let it. Most of the weight you gain is baby and this goes when baby is born! Yes - your body changes but oh my god it's worth it. I was scared about the independence thing, but for me life is much better now I have someone I can constantly share it with. I can still do my own things, and when my Husband is not working he takes Ethan and I get me time, which I appreciate so much more now. The best thing is sometimes having too much me time can become boring, you can run out of things to do, with a baby that doesn't happen! You're never bored! xx
DeleteAww :) I love that photo at the end! He's really starting to look so much like you!
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Thanks, I think he is too! x
DeleteSuch a lovely post! :) xx
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Thanks Emma!x
DeleteAww this is such a lovely post :D
ReplyDeleteEthan is gorgeous and I can't believe it's 6 weeks since he arrived! Enjoy every minute of his baby-ness (sorry, making words up as I go along) as they grow up so fast.
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Thank you Louise. I know it's going too quick! I am just trying to enjoy every single second with him! xx
DeleteThis is absolutely lovely xx
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DeleteWow, I loved this post, Alex. I'm almost 30 and still deciding on the whole kids thing. Your views on motherhood are so inspiring - especially the part where you say that Ethan and Adam are the best thing that's ever happened to you. That's amazing. I wish you and your family all the best!
ReplyDeleteAw thanks Sascha that's really good to hear :) xx
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